Several things have happened recently that have led me to question how much to share of me and my life online…
This is me… an average person – I have days I wake up and think I’m looking pretty good and others when a tired, puffy pig face greets me …. and I don’t know anyone who’s any different really – but the fear of judgement can be intimidating.
It was only about 6 months ago that I actually started posting pictures of myself and I was bloody terrified when I did – stupidly so really.
But it got to the point where I started to feel annoyed with myself for being fearful and decided to just let go, to put my big girl pants on and post a picture!
Cue serious face …
I recently got both some unwanted attention and a bit of hate online…
(Although luckily nothing anywhere near like the poor girl I’ve just mentioned).
As I’ve grown in confidence, I’d started to believe that if I ever had any kind of ‘internet hate’ I would be able to just ignore it – because it’s not a real person, you can turn your comments and messages off and you can block them too, right?
So I was quite shocked by how much it affected me when I got some bitchy messages on Instagram recently.
No matter how much you tell yourself you can’t please everybody, or that there are just some strange people out there in the world, these things really have made me stop and question how much I am willing to continue to share of myself.
But most people are truly genuine and lovely followers/readers – and you end up caring about those people, appreciating them visiting your blog and honestly, I always feel immensely flattered if someone gives even the slightest shit about what I have to say!
Without sounding too gushy, I really feel we have a little online community and its helped me grow my confidence a ton.
So where do you draw the line?
My recent experience has re-highlighted the need for really good internet security, so I’ve taken some extra steps to deal with that.
Why should a sick, weak minority of people be able to affect our lives?
So I’ve made the choice – to let go of fear…
To be free….
To continue to be kind…
… and to just be me.
… and I’ll deal with any negative consequences as and when there are any!